Stop pulling me out. (cos i'm only going back in)

Y'know, in every person's life, there comes a time when you're told that you need to grow up and accept that certain things don't and will never exist. But what they don't know, and will never understand, is that it is your choice, not theirs.

In my case, I'm often told to stop living in a fantasy world and come back to reality. I understand the concern, but it frankly gets old and annoying, getting told what you already know. I understand completely that superheroes don't exist (though it would be cool). I am perfectly aware that I need to draw more than superheroes to get by. So if you're one of those people who thinks like my parents, do me a favour and stop treating me like some idiot who doesen't know what is and isn't reality. I know full well.

I just see things differently to everyone else, for instance, I see a dark side to someone as some person with their face, voice, but with the darkest aspects of their personality. It's how I see my darkness.

And as for my 'fantasy world', its the only place I can go when everything is against me, and it's where my imagination lives. So don't try dragging me out, cause I'll only go back in, and I'll make the barriers even bigger, with writing that spells out eight words only.

You Have Your World, And I'll Have Mine.

this is the boy, not the man.

hey. shoulda done this first, but my organisation always was bad.

yeah, so i've got some growin up to do, but can i be arsed right now? no

At 15, i'm these things. I'm always worried, bout stuff both important to me, and stuff that shouldn't matter at all. stuff important to me would be like keeping those friends i hold most dear, and i'm always worried that i've done somethin stupid to lose them, make them hate me etc. stuff that shouldn't matter, well, use your imagination.

I'm worried i'll never find love. i mean, i know i'm a bit young, but part of me yearns to know what its like. to be loved and cherished by someone who loves you back. i pray to god i'll find someone one day. and i've already met certain people i consider to be...... angels on earth, as it were. 'sigh', why are the angels always taken first?

if you're on my good side, then you've got nothin to worry about. Its when you annoy me about stuff I don't consider amusing that you taste my personal wraths. I get annoyed waaay too easily. but its a thing, deal with it. but fortunately there are many who are on my good side, and have earned my friendship and love.

on a brighter side, i'm really into star wars/scifi stuff. can't get enough of it actually, and no i won't go off of star wars and mass effect, never have, never will. so get with it.

that, and i'm a poet at heart, if i wanted to talk to a girl i liked, and officially exclaim my love, then i'd probably do it usin metaphors etc. thats how romantic i am, heh.

If I have to, i'll lie. If I have to, i'll show my darkness, if that darkness comes out, then i'll draw something related to that, helps get it out and keep it out, listenin to two steps from hell helps that too.

well, thats me, and to be honest, i won't be changing any time soon. the boy will remain, and the man will stay down if he knows whats good for him.

the weekends suck.

Ok, i'll be frank, there are days when the weekend seems fun, you'll probably go out with mates, go shoppin, yada yada yada, but to me, it totally sucks. sitting around doin absolutely nothin is NOT my idea of fun, i'd rather be at school, least it keeps me busy. sure its borin, but so's just sittin around, which sucks even more!!!!!!!!